My Apology

ok im putting this out to the public cuz this is how much i care:

I admit, I'm almost always in the wrong. And there's no excuse for this. I'm so sorry that I've caused so many people pain.

Especially my bf, Bradlee. He doesn't deserve all the crap I dish out.
And I apologize for all the shit I've caused. I'm not using any excuses this time. I'm so sorry. I love you so much..

you dont deserve to be treated the way i treat you.
i take things way outta proportion.
and ur right,
a person doesnt do this to someone they love.
and ive been blinded by what i want,
and didnt realize i was hurting u so much.

now i know the pain i've caused you,
and im ttruely ready to change now.

I love you, Bradlee.

You Can't Understand

i go thru so much shit for you.
you dont even know.

ur always saying whats wrong with me, and how im shit.
and i just take it.
cuz i love you.

u say u love me, and u never WANNA leave me.
but if u really did love me,
u'd tell me i have probs and help me thru them.
and you'd tell me im doing better and that u love me.

you say that u go thru shit,
and u dont believe that i hav it hard too.
but hun, i cry almost every day over you.

i cry because im not good enough
i cry cuz you dont trust me
i cry cuz u dont wana see me
i cry cuz u dont try to help me
i cry cuz u never REALLY talk to me
i cry cuz u act like u dont love me

u just cant understand what i go thru for you
,,,,,
I dont even understand

You Don't Know Me

I'm 13.
And I want a child.
a baby.

and all cuz i want one,
im suddenly a stupid little girl.
they think i dont know what its like.
they think i know nothing about having a baby.
they think just because im 13 i cant do it!

well guess what?
they dont know me.
they have no idea what im capable of.
or if i could do it or not.

this makes me SO mad.
they think just because they're older they know
absolutely EVERYTHING!

well they DONT know if i have the recources
to take care of a baby!
they DONT know why i want one!
they DONT know ME!

Camera Whore?

what does camera whore even mean?
does this mean slutty pics? too many pics? "trying too hard" in your pics?

i've been called a camera whore.
but why?
because i have alot of pics? so what?
i like taking pictures! is that a crime?

no, they aren't slutty either.
so what's with this name calling?